all in one

God is great.

thats not the way it works

I really don't like it when someone just kind of ruins your good mood and they can kind of tell- or at the least are detecting the hints that you give off- but they just think that giving you time alone will eventually make you feel better.
That giving you time alone and backing off will help you sort things out . And yeah, I understand that they feel bad, and I appreciate that, really. . But seriously.
It would be nice, great actually, if they have the decency to actually call you up and talk to you about it.
To try to make you feel better, or maybe apologize? over the phone, not through aim, text, or by any other means of digital messaging.
Cause talking- literally talking- would be nice.

MLIA

So far , everything's so gooooddd <3>

I haven't blogged in a long time . It's been , like, what - 2 months now ? Woowww .

I guess right now , everyone's at their one place in life . Some people are content but stressed- school , friends , family, or something of those sorts- others feel just whatever, (just satisfied) and going about life on autopilot, a routine schedule day after day, having no idea what the heck they are doing, then stopping to to actually think about it, and then finally realizing that its just wake up, school, eat, hw, sleep, and over and over again . There are those who are just against everything and feel hopeless, and are in need of a great big hug ! hehee , And then there are the others , happy with life and grateful for everything that's been thrown at them .

I think that's what I feel right now. I'm not saying that the other people aren't grateful, or I'm not saying that they're depressed or anything. I guess I'm just saying that we're all in this great big mess they call life , and some of us have found a reason to live, having realized what our purpose here on earth is , while others are just , lost .

And I'm happy with life right now . Everything is sooo GREAT :D The weather is soo nice these days , the grass smells sooo good , people are interesting, and food is goood . I met new people , all who I loooveee , my friendss are still my friends , and I think , even though as short of a time these past couple months have been , I appreciate my friends even moree . I'm so thankful for them . I feel like I'm getting closer to my sisterr and we talk more now . Schoolwork is getting harder little by little , though , and I now understand the purpose of studying - not cramming- studying . =_=

I realized that I really really like playing piano, and I really really like Farmville . . . aklsdfhklj Facebook is getting addicting . And not even because of the communication with my friends- but because of Farmville and Happy Aquarium . . WTH . . . and I'm telling people they have no life when they play Dota . . maybe I should stop . Hahaha !

Hmmm , I realized that some of my friends are not so happy these days ):
I hope you guys all sort things out and start feeling better . And if you guys ever need to talk to someone, or you guys are just bored , or if you just feel that you need to tell me to stop planting crops and buying sheep on Farmville , CALL ME UP ! (=
hehehe , <3
Ehhh , these days , I've been thinking though . About prioritizing the things I want, and the things that I need.

So I guess my life is average.

todacosa

hmmm , its morning right now and nothing's happened so far todayy
sooo , ill just blab about yesterdayy

OMG , OKAY SO
my sister and i went to go get massages or somethingg for your scalp and neck and shoulders and back yesterday, and it felt sooo gooodd
but then , it also hurt at the same time cause they were so STRONG OMGG
O_O but it was the "painful-but-feels-good" feeling !
but thenn , i guess they WERE too strong because now my shoulders are a bit bruised ><

DUDE , i can't sleep well anymore these dayss
cause my family's in a hotel for now, and my sister and i have to share a bed
i hate sharing beds now =o=
soo uncomfortable- there's absolutely NO SPACE for me to stretch out my legs after a tiring day
my legs and back is all soree when i wake up all the timee
andd PLUS, daddy snores SO LOUDD
OMG , i always wake up in the middle of the night and have to listen to my ipod
i have to listen to a loud soung like "Right Round" to muffle out the noiseee
T_T
hahahah , well anywayss


so far, korea so good

anybody want letterss ? (:
im going to send them overseas ,tehhhe

so tell me your address if yah want onee ! :D

LONER

i feel like such a loner heree
LOL
i think ive said that beforee
but i really really do
i read about how everyone is hanging out with people and making memories and goin to retreats and they're making their summer days meaningful

and i guess i am too , with family and all
but still , i want to be at home in america
hanging out with everyone elsee

mmm , on a lighter notee
i'm not miserable here either, i guess
i had lotss of fun yesterday :D

shopping at myongdong and kangnam and idaewon
funfunn , cause daddy paid , instead of making me pay for my own stuffss ,hehehe
i lovee my parents <3

and then we ate soo much good food, like myongdong kal gook soo and friggin good patbingsu at this small restaurant

and then i went to my great aunt's burial place todayy
so peaceful , and im happy she doesnt have to suffer any more .
i miss her thoughh

today , i met my suwon familyy
my second cousin soh young remembered me ! :D teheheh , and her baby brother is sooo cutee
and my mom's uncle is so funnyy
i loveee my family <3

everybodyy ! talk to me on myspace or somethingg (:
i wanna hear from you guyss and i want to ketchupp
even from halfway across the world <3
hahahha

bipolar

IM STARTING TO DISLIKE BEING HERE NOW

I like being here and then I also DONT DONT DONT like being heree .

i'm irritated by you . . .

but at the same time, I feel guilty that I am

i
dont
get
you

i dont get myself

i want to go home ,
but at the same time i want to be here



i dont really know what i want anymore

hmmm

-i miss playing the piano
-Down and Good Girls Go Bad is my favorite song right now !
-I realized bruises go for a long timee ><
-I don't like flying over waterr
-being in a boat in the middle of open water FREAKS ME OUT
-i always dream random adventurous dreams :D
-when i smile at a stranger and they smile back at me, it makes my day (:
-babiesbabiesbabies
-i like latpot keyboards muchh better than just normal keyboads
-i like to sweat
-not when im dressed up though , LOL
-youre soo confusing , I don't know how to figure you out . what are you thinking ?
-i dont like it when people lie to me
-have some class
-pressing buttons are superr fun !
-i dont like wearing shoess