choonhee babeyy .

dudee , my eyeballs are drying up x_x
cause i just slept for like, 20 minutes with my contacts on and yeahh .
haha !

well anywaysss , today i went on bio field trip today .
i thought it would be really funn but , it didnt reach my expectations .
but it wasn't BORING either . it was in the middle .

but i hated how the bus was soo crowded and hot and humidity . bleghh .

but the botanical garden was really prettyy . and it smelled nice and it had a veryy pleasant air . pahahah ! :D

OHMYGOSHH . AND ALSOO .
like , the way that we went to the botanical garden was JUST LIKE THE WAY i used to go to for my flute lessons and it brought back soo many memories .

like, you know when you used to go somewhere like, very often but then you stopped going there and all of a sudden you go to that place and its like , ALL THE MEMORIES COME RUSHING BACK .
yahh knoww ?

i miss my old flute teacher Wendy): she was sooo nice . and like , she always comforted me when my mom and i had fights and she always gave me a cookie and her husband was so nice and he always made copies for us and he was always so jolly . and OMG her dog Ellie was the sweetest ever . seirouslyy ! .

sometimes , i wish that i hadnt quit flute . even though i didnt like it , i think everything else would be worth it for me to just suck it up and endure the torture of flute lessons .

i miss Wendy so muchh ): sometimes , i wish that i could just meet up with her one day or stop by her house to say hi or somethingg .
aaahhh !

there's soo many people that used to be in my life but now arebt .
i wonder what They're life's like so farr.

sighhh . well anywayss .

todayy , i was ALMOT ABOUT TO GET A CATT ! ):
butt then my mommy made me get rid of it OVER THE PHONE . UGHH ,
like , my parents arent home for the weekend so i decidied to ask julia for one of her cats and keep it until tomorrow nad surprise them with it later .
but then my mom guessed what the surprise was so i just said yes it was a cat .
and she was like "GET RID OF IT IMMEDIATELY ! IT BETTERN OT BE AT HOME BY TOMORROW ! BLAHBLAHBLAH ! "
=_=^
soo , no more kitty anymore .
and i even named it Choonhee and got attached to it and even my aunt was getting attached to it .
ughh , only if i had a cat my home life would be complete - with a few exceptions .
isldhglshgs .

and today , i realized my old feelings for certain things are coming back .
i thought they were gone .
i guess not T_T
what do i do now ?
get over it ?
yeahh , probablyyy .

OHMYGOSH .
i just had a conversation with myself .
how gayyyy

scooters&balloons <3

OKAYY SOO .
today was the BEST DAY of this week so farr .
:D !
causee , school today was okayy . it was so hot for me cause i wore a blouse that went up to my neck .
with ruffles on the front, which chris said looks like a vagina =o=
WHAT THE HAILLL ???
thenn , we finished Gatteca in bio and it was suchh a touching movie . it moved my heart . hahah !

and thenn , after school , all the fun stuff happened .
chodeTiffany&i went to penisheadJuliahoolia's houseee and saw all her cute furry kittens and her mommy cats . SOO PRETTY !
and the baby cats are the friggen CUTEST . im serious manggg . omgash !
im going to take one home . MUAHAH !
and nothing can stop mee >:)
and i already named mine . tehehe , its name is now officially KARONG CHAE .
PAHAHAH ! :D
and thennn , tiffany's madre and her brojo came and took two kittens home . and i witnessed the adoption . LOLLL . those luckybuttss .
thenn , tiffany left and then Julia came to mahhousee .
after she came to my house, we rode on scooters and went down to cherry on top and on our way down, we took two giant balloons from the emerald point sign .
then we got some el yogur and ate that and then we scootered around that big empty parking lot space in front of kfc looking like a bunch of childish 9thgraders on scooters with balloons tied on to them . but oh well, it was funn .
thenn we scootered around the whole plaza once and got hungry and we ate phoo .
VERMICELLI WAS SOO GOOD.
thankyouu julia for introducing that to mee <3
i owe you $5 , mang .
hahah !
thenn we went back up and we sat in our garage with the lights on and made jae come over but we only stayed outside and just talked randomly for like, 15 minutes because mah madre came .
and yeahh .
and all that time , it was superfunnn .
lets do that again juliababeyyy <33

but then , i just realized firday is bio test -_-
BUTT . i am NOT letting that fact ruin my good day and fantastic mood today so im going to forget about that for now .
hahahhaha !
all right , byebyee .

the saltwater room

such happy days this week has been(:
seriously, everyday , at least one thing had made my day .
and one of them was always the weather . omgashh . the weather was SO PRETTY so far this week :D yayy !

dudee, and theres this one song that my sister introduced to me and its called the saltwater room .
ohmyy, so cute and the lyrics are so sweet and the song is so pretty ,
well, in My opinion . haha , go listen to it !
i put it on mah myspace .
puahaha ,

andd, i just started reading this really bittersweet book called Dear John and its suchh a good book . its cute but sad at the same time , it made me cry a little . and the story is soo like, dreamy. haha , but its one of those bittersweet love stories an yehh . hahaha !

well , . . this is it for today .
im going to go read now , byebyee . <3

cheer up, please .

ohmygosh .
i think there's so much bad things going on these days ,
not necessarily to me,
but as i watch the world, i think i can see it happen among the people i know and love ):

so many people talk about how gossip's going around, or how things are just not working out the way they prefer, or of how these days they're so sad and life is so gay to them .
my life is gay too, but not that much . im still satisfied with it, and i wouldnt want any other different life ,

thats why when i hear of people having such hard difficulties, it breaks my heart .
especially for mahfriends ,
i wish i could help you guys , but i dont know how to .
but i promise to pray to God that everything works out for you guys <3>

Amy Chen: i love how you and i can just talk about our "what the freak" moments and complain together about "what the freak" stuffs
Amy Tan: i love how we meet up after fourth period and get lunch together and you're always so bubbly and happy and you cheer me up after i get a bad test grade
Christine Kim: i love how you're open to talk about boys cause then that reassures me that i can trust you too with some of My problems
Clara Kim: i love your spontaneousness and your kindness and how youre not scared of piercing other people's ears
CrystalLee: i love when you IM me out of the blue because you feel like you're getting distant because that lets me know that you're a real friend
Deborah Kim: i love how you're always happy and you're so fun to talk to when talking about the guys we like
Evelyn Na: i love how you know some people that i know too that are not in the group of friends we hang out with, cause then that gives us an extra topic to talk about in a conversation
Grace Cheng: i love how you want to get some fat on your bones cause you think you're too skinny and you actually admit it and that lets me know that you really know what a healthy weight is
HyeJin Park: i love how you're modest and that you're so nice and when i see you being super nice, it inspires me to be really nice too
Janelle Francisco: i love how your first impression was good when you were new to DBHS cause you were happy and nice and bubbly and you're so laid back, that it mkakes me feel relaxed
Jasmine Chae: i love how we still remember our Doctor and Mango memories from way back in 7th grade and we still call each other that without thinking its lame
Jessica Chiang: i love how when you laugh, you're not afraid to laugh out loud and you're always so easy to talk to, i dont know why, but i love it when i talk to you about certain things
Julia Park: i love how you love your kitties and when we do our MAKness and go crazy and the fact that youre so close with your sisters is just heartwarming
Julie Keong: i love the moments when you're hyper cause your laugh just cheers me up and it lets me know that even with sad things in the world, there's always happiness
Karan Kim: i love how you always understand the feelings that i have, whether its happy or angry or annoyed or just confused and how you know lots about animals cause it gives me someone to feel animal-smart with
Katherine Chung: i love when i talk to you about serious matters such as the people who's causing me sadness and heartbreak especially cause the people that you know knows the people that i know and they're all connected in some way and i can always go to you to vent
Kristin Yoon: i love the way you talk and your accent and how you alway say "hi guys" when you greet people cause then i think "oh! its kristin!" without having to lok at your face cause you have your own unique style of talking
Pamela Chen: i love how you're always so gentle and nice and how you love your mom and helped her in the kitchen that one time at your house and how you love your baby Garfield
Priscilla Lee: i love it when you ask cute questions and how you're willing to leave at 5 to go to church from a birthday party
Michelle Kim: i love talking to you about the gayness of life and certain issues about what bothers us and i love how you understand the way i feel about certain people
Michelle Park: i love it when you and i laugh about something that happened together without even having to mention it out loud , especially when you're all the way in the front and im in the back of bio
SarahKim: i love how you always know how to say how you feel about something, and it makes it so much easier for me to know what's going on inside your head .
Sarah Pang: i love it when you get ADD and get so distracted by other topics when we're talking about a serious issue cause it always happens to make me laugh and not be depressed anymore, like that time at sarahkim's house
Sarah Chang: i love how you're so cuddly and motherlike and gentle and funny and tough and not afraid to speak your mind
Sarah Choi: i love it when we go crazy together and laugh uncontrollably and talk about bio at church cause it makes me feel smart
Sharon Hong: i love how we always laugh and talk about guys and your innocentness and i love your laugh cause its not too loud and obnoxious, but its not too quiet for a laugh either

title .

today
was
SO GAYYY .
school was friggin gay but after that, it kind of got a tiny bit betteer .
cause schoo lwas super boring , im not even kidding .
school is just soo blahh these days and there's no excitement and i never have energy anymore and its just, idontknoww .
so many doubts go through my mind these days now .
its kind of hard to trust people with doubts , yahknow ?
so its only getting harder .

sidughliehafkjsbghkljsd ,
and it started raining again today -_- ughhh , i hate rain at school .
especially because then we have to eat lunch in the hot, nasty, smelly gross band room where everyone's squished like a can of sardines and it just makes me lose my apetite .
ewww .

but today after school at amy's house for english project was pretty okay . i loved how there was so much food :D
ahaha yummyy .
and im still soo full .
mann, and a certain someone never stopped fartingg .!
LOLL .

oh, and by the way ,
is there a specific GOOD exercise you can do to lose the fato n your stomach, and like, on your side ?
cause i seriously need to lose those -o-
ughh, they're just depressing . loll.

such a BORE .

omgahhh .
today was such a boring dayy -_-
except at the end of the day, cause it was kind of interesting .
but yeahh .
EHNEEWAAYSS .
omgosh, today we did BMI in p.e., and when i looked at my percentage fat whatever thingy, i just wanted to cryy .
now everytime i see that number, i just want to cry cause it reminds me of the percentage of body fat i have and its just depressingg .
i have to start gettingin shape , FAST .
just in time for swimsuit season :D
hahaha ! hope its possible ,
so i decided to run and swim LOTS .
and stretch plenty and eat healthyy .
(:
slajkghsiauhfsa . mannn, why is school so boring these days ?
there's absolutely nothign to look forward to anymore, and the classes are just getting gay and im really starting to get annoyed of my english teacher for giving out dumb useless piece of crap projects . seriouslyy -__-
and the grading doesnt even make sense .
UGHHH . dumb klingerr .


&& i hate being blind and not being able to wear my contacts .
eye allergies suckk .
dont ever get them -_-