yah know what i realyy lovee .?
those really really good days at school .
especially if i prayed to God for a good day , and that day actually turns out good .
i feel SUPER HAPPY on thosee days .
ive had such really good days for a long time ,
BUT these recent couple of days suck.
like, seriously, SUCK .
im procrastinating more and more these days and i cant get myself organized and i cant study in one spot for a long time anymore .
and everytime i tell myself that i need to study causei dont understand it, i never do and i always put it off .
and then i get like, anxiety attacks or something and its practically liek having the feeling of stagefright but not on a stage .

okayy, soo, today, i told lina and michelle and sharon that the ends of necklaces are called a boobie .
and they BOTH were like o__o huhh ?
and were shocked for liek, half a second .
and both of their expressions were so funny :D
so just so you know people, the end of a necklace is called a boobie, so dont be shocked if i tell you to turn your neckalce so the boobie doest show .
hahaha :D
mann, im gayy .
T_T
loll !

asgkihaslfkhasdf , dudeeee .
this week, i made sooo many mistakes -o-
i regret all of them .
now this whole week is going to be boring and gay for me with no fun whatsoever .
but i hope that its still fun, either way .
and that something surprising and shockign happens .
but a GOOD shocking surprise . (:
loll .

fersuree .

birthday today , .
was good & also bad -_-
ughh . i found out what my overall math grade is and even though tis not horrible, its still not good . -o-
and then i also have bio test tomorrow, and i dont know if i know everything ,
and math test is on thursday and i dont get alot of stuff ,
and so today was a bad day .

but, i cant really say that it was bad, actually . it was just stressful .
cause im so thankful for all my lovely and sweet friends , cause they knew it was my birthday and they wrote me cute letters and got me balloons and wished me happybirthday <3
thank you frandss ! i love youu all (:
tehehe , im so thankful to be able to say that you guys are my friends .
seriously . you guys are always there for me ,
and i realized today that time already went by so fast , half the year is already over .
and that means we're all going to be together in high school for only another ilke, 3 more years .
thats depressing ):
but ohwell . we'll make the mosto f everything and keep them as memories .
fersuree, yeah ? <3

cant breathee .

so many distractions !
i cant keep concentrated on school these days .
i dont even remember what i learned in the past three weeks or something .
and i have friggin bio test and math test this coming week -__-
and i dont even understand what im learning right noww .
ughh, and mr. kuo is getting on my nerves .
and everything feels so suffocated and smothering me down and i cant breathee relaxingly and so many things that ive never noticed before are starting to appear to me and lskhdglksajgshg .
and . . its my birthday on monday , and it doesn't even feel like its a happy occasion . it just seems like a whatever, normal day T_T


and people are getting differentee .
i wonder whyy :/
i have so many quesitons .
i feel smotheredd =o=

sadies .

everybody's talking about sadies .
those who go, hope you have fun (:
ahaha,
ughh, but besides the sadie's talk, school's so boring these days .
its the usual same old stuff,
and there's so many little secrets going around its so hard to keep my head straight .
and my grades aren't even what i want them to be =__=
hl;fkhjalfsahlaj ,
and i think im like, pmsing these days or something, cause did i mention it ?
yeahh, i think i did .
everything pisses me off so fast these days ,
even the littlest things .
and they're such retarded reasons , im seriouss .
sometimes, i piss myself off .
ughh .
i wish something happened ,
something good though, definitely not bad of course.
loll ! (:
mahhbirthday's coming up soon ,
but its funny, how you never feel like your new age .
i dont know, thats everybody, huh ?
ack, im tired .
byee

i hate monday

i hate this day today .
SO FRIGGIN GAY, AND BORING .
all im doing is homework the whole day ,
pissing me off -__-

and its cold and gray and wet outside .
everything's getting on my nerves .

SHUT UP .

spaghetti&meatballs .

today was a GOOD DAY ! :D
not unlucky at all .

so band- fun cause we didnt play and we just ate muffins and candies in the back while the brass did practice or something .
2ndperiod pe- we did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING .
seirously, mr. desai really said "so today, we're going to do absolutely nothing. . ." i was shocked .
cause he's usually the kinds of teachers who say "oh today's a beautiful day. perfect for brahma run" on a monday when brahma runs are on thursdays =o=
LOL .
3rd period english- we were supposed to be doing this worksheet or something but we had a sub and like, everyone was just talking and doing their own things and so me and sarahkim and chris just talked about earpierces . haha ! and then we went to freshman remix . !
woohoo , so fun !
mostly because we SKIPPED 4TH PERIOD .yeuuhhh .
and then there was this guy i think named andrew and he told us his touching story and it almost brought tears to my eyess . hahahahha
totally inspirational :D
LOL !
but lunch was so cold .
period5 spanish- whatever , not that great, not fun either .
6th period bio- BORING as usual
BUT THEN . after school, ohmygoshh . thats when the fun began . hahah !
pamela's house was superduper fun .
and i met a new girl named audrey and everyone seems to already know her, but i first introduced myself in such an unexpected way . loll !
&&jessica's SO FUNNY when she plays pingpong and daniel's reactions crack me up .
pamela's kitty Garfield is so cute . i just want to squish him and bite him !

then after we played levelspoons for like, 15 minutes but it didnt work .
the turning off the light game was superrfunn . i think i have a bruise on my hand now though .
friggin derrick's finger . hahah
then we attempted animal kingdom and puma, but that didnt work either .
then we ate spaghetti . so goodd .
and the video on youtube of a boy high off of anesthesia after a dentist surgery is funnyy .
"is this real ?? i have two fingers ! "
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA :D
church was okay , same as usual .
blahblahh , okay bye noww (:

.

wow,
i read my blogs .
and i write alot .
im annoying myself .
so ill shut up and write little now .

ugly troll .

you know how sometimes, you have those days where your clothes feel gay and your hair seems gross and frizzy and yoru face just looks more uglier than normal and you feel like a fat oompa loompa? yeah, today, i felt like the ugliest troll on the planet earth . but otherwise, the day was pretty okay, it wasn't great but it was average .
but lunch was gay, since we ate inside the band room . but, then again, it wasn't that horrible cause derrick and david were talking about like, funny videos or something and they kept laughing and then evelyn started laughing just cause they were laughing and then kevin started throwing carrots and evelyn and then she threw one too but it hit derrick on accident and derrick got a ll serious and he wasl ike "who threw the carrot" hahahaha, and evelyn was cracking up , it was so funnyy . mann, his face expression was hilarious.
well anywayss . . . .
it rained so much today !
it was like woooooooooooosssssssshhhhhhh . :D
hahaha ! seriously, and this morning, there was so much rain and wind i thought my windows were going to blow off ! it sounded like the little BB guns at first . hahah ! ughh, i hate how it rained today at school. and i didnt even have a friggin umbrella ! but it was cool how in english, the water was coming in through the bottom crack of the door and it was coming so fast ! chris was so fascinated by it . and david was talking about how we were going to have a flood. but then, he contradicted himself and was like, "no, God promised that he wouldn't do that again" .
he was talking to himself, i think . loll
mannn , i ate so much . lajghakghjfs ! im going to wake up tomorrow with a poofy face ):

dudee ! the outline for bio today was about genetic engineering . i think it was so cool !
LOL .

this is soooo cute !
i want a great dane now :D
they're so handsome . (=



. . . . . well actually, now that i think about it . school's really boring . . lksjghdsdlkbgkjbh , there's nothing new . its always the same stuff .
Dear God, please make school fun .
and please help me get straight A's this semester and not be on borderline .
<3

inspired .

woahh, this is so cool .
its just like what jessica said, "its like a journal" hahah !
and then like, i was reading michellekim and jessica and crystal's blogs and they inspired me to do my own . hahah !

hmm, i think im going to enjoy myself in writing blogs,
cause i always talk to myself anyways -__- when i think people are listening, and then someone who just saw everything that happened points out that no one was listening and then i feel retarded .
like at church today, friggin jay . LOL ! i was telling sarah about something, i forgot what i was talking about, but then like, jay was just sitting there and he was so mean , when i wasnt even finished talking, he was just like "hey, no one's listening. they dont care HAHAHA"
T_T mann, he's so mean . hahaha ! justkidding . he was just messing around.
but then , i hope i can be able to keep up with this cause everytime i start something, i never finish or continue it ):
but im determined to write in the blogs . haha !
OHMYGOSH . i cant believe some schools dont have school tomorrow , but dbhs does . thats gaaaaaaaayyyy . !
well anyways, this friday is friday the 13th !
o__o ooooohhh, creepyy .
HAHAHAH ! justkidding ,
aw man, and i have a math test that day . -o- drats .
ughh, i hope it doesnt rain tomorrow while at school . i hate carrying an umbrella and it always gets caught in the small hallways and your shoes ge all wet and we have to eat inside the band room where it smells like no other and everybody's squished up and sitting on top of each other's backpacks and bleghhh .
but i like rain too, cause after all the nasty brown dry places get all fresh and green and prettyful and colorfull :D and the wet grass smells good . LOL !
klghslkdghshsad . i think i should study now . -__- and do friggin piano . ughh , i hate CM now . i want to QUIT .