all in one

God is great.

thats not the way it works

I really don't like it when someone just kind of ruins your good mood and they can kind of tell- or at the least are detecting the hints that you give off- but they just think that giving you time alone will eventually make you feel better.
That giving you time alone and backing off will help you sort things out . And yeah, I understand that they feel bad, and I appreciate that, really. . But seriously.
It would be nice, great actually, if they have the decency to actually call you up and talk to you about it.
To try to make you feel better, or maybe apologize? over the phone, not through aim, text, or by any other means of digital messaging.
Cause talking- literally talking- would be nice.

MLIA

So far , everything's so gooooddd <3>

I haven't blogged in a long time . It's been , like, what - 2 months now ? Woowww .

I guess right now , everyone's at their one place in life . Some people are content but stressed- school , friends , family, or something of those sorts- others feel just whatever, (just satisfied) and going about life on autopilot, a routine schedule day after day, having no idea what the heck they are doing, then stopping to to actually think about it, and then finally realizing that its just wake up, school, eat, hw, sleep, and over and over again . There are those who are just against everything and feel hopeless, and are in need of a great big hug ! hehee , And then there are the others , happy with life and grateful for everything that's been thrown at them .

I think that's what I feel right now. I'm not saying that the other people aren't grateful, or I'm not saying that they're depressed or anything. I guess I'm just saying that we're all in this great big mess they call life , and some of us have found a reason to live, having realized what our purpose here on earth is , while others are just , lost .

And I'm happy with life right now . Everything is sooo GREAT :D The weather is soo nice these days , the grass smells sooo good , people are interesting, and food is goood . I met new people , all who I loooveee , my friendss are still my friends , and I think , even though as short of a time these past couple months have been , I appreciate my friends even moree . I'm so thankful for them . I feel like I'm getting closer to my sisterr and we talk more now . Schoolwork is getting harder little by little , though , and I now understand the purpose of studying - not cramming- studying . =_=

I realized that I really really like playing piano, and I really really like Farmville . . . aklsdfhklj Facebook is getting addicting . And not even because of the communication with my friends- but because of Farmville and Happy Aquarium . . WTH . . . and I'm telling people they have no life when they play Dota . . maybe I should stop . Hahaha !

Hmmm , I realized that some of my friends are not so happy these days ):
I hope you guys all sort things out and start feeling better . And if you guys ever need to talk to someone, or you guys are just bored , or if you just feel that you need to tell me to stop planting crops and buying sheep on Farmville , CALL ME UP ! (=
hehehe , <3
Ehhh , these days , I've been thinking though . About prioritizing the things I want, and the things that I need.

So I guess my life is average.

todacosa

hmmm , its morning right now and nothing's happened so far todayy
sooo , ill just blab about yesterdayy

OMG , OKAY SO
my sister and i went to go get massages or somethingg for your scalp and neck and shoulders and back yesterday, and it felt sooo gooodd
but then , it also hurt at the same time cause they were so STRONG OMGG
O_O but it was the "painful-but-feels-good" feeling !
but thenn , i guess they WERE too strong because now my shoulders are a bit bruised ><

DUDE , i can't sleep well anymore these dayss
cause my family's in a hotel for now, and my sister and i have to share a bed
i hate sharing beds now =o=
soo uncomfortable- there's absolutely NO SPACE for me to stretch out my legs after a tiring day
my legs and back is all soree when i wake up all the timee
andd PLUS, daddy snores SO LOUDD
OMG , i always wake up in the middle of the night and have to listen to my ipod
i have to listen to a loud soung like "Right Round" to muffle out the noiseee
T_T
hahahah , well anywayss


so far, korea so good

anybody want letterss ? (:
im going to send them overseas ,tehhhe

so tell me your address if yah want onee ! :D

LONER

i feel like such a loner heree
LOL
i think ive said that beforee
but i really really do
i read about how everyone is hanging out with people and making memories and goin to retreats and they're making their summer days meaningful

and i guess i am too , with family and all
but still , i want to be at home in america
hanging out with everyone elsee

mmm , on a lighter notee
i'm not miserable here either, i guess
i had lotss of fun yesterday :D

shopping at myongdong and kangnam and idaewon
funfunn , cause daddy paid , instead of making me pay for my own stuffss ,hehehe
i lovee my parents <3

and then we ate soo much good food, like myongdong kal gook soo and friggin good patbingsu at this small restaurant

and then i went to my great aunt's burial place todayy
so peaceful , and im happy she doesnt have to suffer any more .
i miss her thoughh

today , i met my suwon familyy
my second cousin soh young remembered me ! :D teheheh , and her baby brother is sooo cutee
and my mom's uncle is so funnyy
i loveee my family <3

everybodyy ! talk to me on myspace or somethingg (:
i wanna hear from you guyss and i want to ketchupp
even from halfway across the world <3
hahahha

bipolar

IM STARTING TO DISLIKE BEING HERE NOW

I like being here and then I also DONT DONT DONT like being heree .

i'm irritated by you . . .

but at the same time, I feel guilty that I am

i
dont
get
you

i dont get myself

i want to go home ,
but at the same time i want to be here



i dont really know what i want anymore

hmmm

-i miss playing the piano
-Down and Good Girls Go Bad is my favorite song right now !
-I realized bruises go for a long timee ><
-I don't like flying over waterr
-being in a boat in the middle of open water FREAKS ME OUT
-i always dream random adventurous dreams :D
-when i smile at a stranger and they smile back at me, it makes my day (:
-babiesbabiesbabies
-i like latpot keyboards muchh better than just normal keyboads
-i like to sweat
-not when im dressed up though , LOL
-youre soo confusing , I don't know how to figure you out . what are you thinking ?
-i dont like it when people lie to me
-have some class
-pressing buttons are superr fun !
-i dont like wearing shoess

ooppss

ooppss !
I walked into the men's restroom at the airport todayy ><>
so embarassingg =o=

caught my sister trying-to-be-cool-but-fail so many times today , LOLL
likee , one time she tried to be 'slick' and slide through a closing door but got stuck and thought no one saw ,
then she looked up and saw me- we crackedd upp :D
and LOTS moree , HAHAHA

ate samkyubsal todayy ,
havent eaten it in a whilee and i used to love it , then i hated it,
now i LOVE IT :D
OMGG ! so gooodd (:
i understand you now julieee , LOL

im finally in Korea noww , yeee !
im so happy, i can actually understand the language around me and read the signs and navigate my way aroundd
yesssss

new experiences

I love experiencing new things
I hate being lost, physically and mentally, but I kind of like it in a way , LOL
it sucks at the moment, cause you realize how much you DONT know, and you feel so small
and im pretty sure people don't really like to feel that way- I know I DONT :/ hahahah ,
But then after when you look back , you realize how much you've learned and how much more open to the world you are , yah knoww ? hahahah

I still want to go home ! ):
but I think it's a good thing I'm here in Japan

BUT
I miss errbodyyy and everythingg,
im homesickkk ):
i miss my doggiess
i miss my room
i miss my bed
i miss my doll
i miss my friends
i miss my cousins [in america]
i miss cherry on top
i miss rite aid
i miss my birds
i miss my fishhh
i miss diamond bar
i miss puente mall
i miss brea mall
i miss the American cars
i miss the American roads
i miss going to the moviess
i miss being home all day on the computer
i miss watching English TV
i miss going swimming
i miss the sun
i miss the dryness
i just miss being HOME

I feel like such a loner hereee LOL
everybody's playing and hanging out with everyone else and catching up on thingss ,
while I'm stuck halfway across the world with no friends to hang out with and talk about things with and hang outtt

PEOPLEEE
GET ON AIM MORE OFTEN DURING THE NIGHT
cause that's when I'm on and i wanna talk to you all ! :D

OH !
and idk why but everytimee i go on i cant comment certain people on their blogspots even though im jsut dyingg tooo !
soo here yah gos :

MICHELLEPARK:
i dont remember if the comment i commented you worked , so ill just say it againn
hahaha .
OMG , NO CLASSES TOGETHER
THIS SUCKS
):
YOU HAVE SO MANY CLASSES WITH PEOPLE
I HATE YOUU
justkidding <3
i love youuuu !
i miss you tooooo ): dlkfjhadjkg

JULIEKEONG:
HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH ! I LVOE YOUR BLOG ABOUT 100 THINGS ,
dudee , i lovee you juliee <3
hilarioussss ! i miss youu so muchh and we couldnt even hang out properly AT ALL this summerr
WTH ,
THAT'S WACKEDD
and no classes together ):
IM GOING TO PULL OUT MY EYELASHESS >:(

MISHKIM:
HAHAHAHA DUDEEE MICHELLEE
your 100 things are soo cutee too !

CRYSTAL LEE:
its 10 29 and nobodys online =(
DUDE ! that rhymess ! :D
i miss you too crystall ):
and im in japan right now, the airport actually
im goign to korea in like an hour , tehehe
lets finally play when i come back !
i wanna play with youuuuu

OMG COMPUTER'S RUNNING OUT OF TIME
OMG
OMG
OMG
38 SECONDS
I HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO SAY THOUGGHH
-___-
DFHKSDFJ

hotel rooms

hotel rooms are scaryyy, if not at first then laterr
omgg, i hate hotel roomss
=o=
and now im scared to turn the lights off and go back to sleep cause its 5 in the morning here and i woke up from a bad dream and i cant go back to sleep ><
and my sister's sleeping like a baby , WTH
hahahahah , not fair ! LOLL (:



I decided on my honeymoon when I grow up, I dont want to go anywhere fancy like New York or Las Vegas or Hawaii.
Instead, I want to go somewhere completelyy random, somewhere we've both never been beforee,
with just one luggage, money, and a map
and get around ourself and get lost and find our way backk !
heheheh ,
oh, but a place that speaks English, hahah

I miss all you guyss !
how are youu ?
(:

i hate eyes

I HATE EYES NOW
I ALWAYS GET INFECTIONS OR A STY OR MY VISION GETS WORSE
OMG
WHAT
IS
THE
MATTER
WITH
MY
EYEBALLS
-_________________-
ASKLDGJHLSKAFHKLASFH

i have another sty right after it got all better AND I'm going to Japan and Korea tomorrow ,
WITH A STY.
WHATS UP WITH THATT ?!?
OMGG ,

AND what reallyy makes me mad is that this summer I want to losee fat, but instead i gainedd
I'm serious, I gained soo much fat and all my muscle became jiggly.
-o-
AAHHHH , IM SO MAD.
i hate summer noww ! >:O

hehe, justkidding , i still like summer (:
i just have to control what i eat. , heh heh heh

mann , now I'm going to be gone for 4 weeks,
I'm going to miss everyonee ,
and I already miss youuuu
and youu
and all of youu elsee
):
I didn't even play enough with everyone this summer ,
how UNFUN .
=o=
but hopefull when school starts, let's ketchupp :D

OOHH , and my schedule is:

1. MathAn/CalH- Wiencek
2. ChemH- Bravo
3. ModWorldHistory-Salyer
4. Eng2H- Tenace
5. Spanish2H- Sorenson
6. xcountry/track-weincek/desai

tell me if we have any classes togetherr ! (=

happyyy

moviess todayy was funn (:
katherine, sarahchoi, sharon, chris, arthur, davidchiang, derrick, vincent, and eddie

yumyy food- two hotdogs :D
myy favoritee !


cross country tomorrow morning
havent gone for a week because i hurt my foot
now i feel so lazyy to go
uh-ohh
i hope i dont fall back

today's addition to my happy list :
movie theaters

today's song :
Happy by NeverShoutNever

pools & picnics

todayy was SUPERFUNN !
julia and sarahkim came over to my housee around 2ish .

then we went swimmingg and ohhmyy ,
julia kept untying my top and so i undid hers and we had warr (:<
but thenn , she finally got both strings off and took the top piece and started to swing it around the pool and toss it aroundd , =___=
WOOWW .
but luckily, nobody but sarah julia and i were theree !
and thenn i tried to do it to juliaa ,
but it didnt come off
she said her boobs were big enough to hold it up ,
LOLL . sureee , (=
hahahaha !
thenn , we got hungry so we went home
made grilled cheese sandwich and peanut butter sandwiches and eggs and this mexican quesadilla thing and waffles . with orange juice, shik hae, and water to drink . and cherries, and nacho chipss and otter pops for desert ! went for a picnic on my FRONT LAWN :D
it was funnn and DELISHH . !
then jason came over and we played cards ,
egyptian war went on FOREVERR . OMG ,
first julia and sarah got out , then i was winnng, then jason was winning, then sarah tapped in , then she got out, then julia tapped in- got out, then sarah tapped in, then SHE started winning , and then i started to win then jason then sarah again , and ohmyy .
then it FINALLY ended theree , but she cheatedddd . ):<
hahaha <33>
longset game i ever playedd for cardss ><

then julia and i went to swim again and sarah and jason were just playing cards ,
then the swimming suit top war went on again -_-
but luckilyy , nothing came off . o__o
then sarah left and we pushed jason into the pool ,
clothes and all, hehehe (:<
and thenn i came homee (=
FUNFUNN DAYY !


but my ankle hurts sooo bad >< i don't know if its sprained or WHATT . OMGOSHH . it hurts moree than before now afksldfhklasdh hopefully itll get better by wednesdayy so i can run again ! yipeee :D

there's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 youuu ,
i love youuu

?

i just had this scary nightmare last night ,

my friends and i were getting "chosen"
and everybody that was chosen was in one uniform and the others were in another ,
and then us chosen ones were in line cause we thought that something special was going to happen to us
but everyone that walked by had a horrified expression
and then Michelle Park walked by and i asked her what was going on
and she just shook her head at me with wide eyes and ran away
then my mom was in charge and i asked her what was going on
she said "just get in line" and pushed me and Sharon through this door
and when i got in, it was all dark and i turned around to go back out but she locked the door and the door had no handle
and then Sharon was gone
so i followed the corridor and opened the door
i was in my garage and Sharon was in a Saw contraption , with a knife in her hand
she was begging me to finish the puzzle and get her out
so i turned on the recorder and heard Jigsaw's voice
the timer started and i had one minute left
i couldn't finish the puzzle
Sharon cut her head open with the knife
i asked her "doesn't it hurt?" and she said "not at all" then she said "Elaine, im getting dizzzy" and died
i was so scared i opened the garage , got in the car and drove away
i crashed into a cow pen on the way to Chino Hills
then i got caught and i woke up

then i went back to sleep and the dream was continued o_o
i was in my parent's room and my mom told me i was never to leave the room
it was because my friends were downstairs being caught and "chosen"
then i ran away and my parent's henchmen were chasing after me
they caught me
then i woke up

then i went back to sleep and this time i was on a bicycle running away from the henchmen again
one of them was named George and he was chasing me through the streets of Mexico and caught me
he then got distracted by one of his ex-girlfriends and forgot about me
so i ran away at this moment
but then he realized i was gone and then started chasing me again
my bike got caught on a water hose
and right when he was about to catch me , i woke up

im seriouss , all my dreams these past few days were about running away and getting caught

what the heckkk
maybe there's something i keep avoiding , or im running away from O_o

guess whoo

heheh , im going to copy mishh and julie and do the person thingg ,
i think its soo cute and funn :D hahah !
but i'm going to admit, it's pretty long. =/

1. We've been friends since kindergartenn, lovee <3 youve taught me so many things throughout our friendship together. i can trust you for anything and youre bubbly personality just makes me happy whenever im down. i especially love talking about boys with youu ! hahah , i your words always give me the extra push whenever i feel discouraged and i love how you know when to just listen. i think we get closer as the years go by- let's keep it that wayy . <3 BCSFL


2. Im so gladd that you're one of my best friendss, i could always talk to you about anything and be RELAXED cause i know i can trust you all the timee . I remember during 8th grade, we had such passionate hatred for certain people and mann . what a ride that wass .haha ! MEMORIES <3 remember our first time at CUE ? we were soo lamee . AHAHA ! we havent really hung out alot these dayss , and it kind of feels like im growing a bit distant from youu dear. let's ketchupp <3 :D


3. since our mommy's stomachs up until now- 15. dang holymoly ! hahaha ! we've come a long waay , and ive loved every moment of it. You're soo nice and sweet and cute too . You know how to laugh and you know how to be true to yourselff . <3 i love when you sleepover and i make you fat and we talk right before we go to sleep about everything . and i love our dates together and how youre comfortable with me and im so comfortable with you that we have no guilty feelings when we say "i dont like your guy" or "that makes you look fat" HAHAH ! i loveee it <3 !


4. I love you soo muchh . i love how you're so crazy sometimess and when you laugh you make mee laugh and you're so loving and sweet and swimming with you is superr funn . ! hahah , and OMG . There's just sooo many things to talk about when Im with youu ! seriouslyy , I can open up to you about anything ! hahaha ! and you said that you used to hate me and i had ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA . LOLL ! i find that pretty funny, hahaha ! And when we go places together with our familiess, i enjoy every minute of it .<3 .


5. I think you're so funny and down to earth .! you're honestt and , dont cringe, youre cutee . hahahah ! You always say the right things to make me feel better, and that just makes me want to talk to youu more . sometimess , i think you're really confusingg , LOL . but that's okayy . cause youre bold at the same time and i like that - it helps mee to be bold too. ! dudee , remember the library ? it was soo funnyy, hehehe ,your best friend pencil sharpener . (: you're one of my bestfriends and i know i can always trust you with anythingg, and i hope you know that you can trust me with anything too . I'll always be here for yahh <3 .


6. I used to hatee your gutss . but now i dont ! hahah ! its so fun talking to you and especially english class ! LOLL . SUPERRFUNN . i think i got closer to you this yearr . And yeahh , okay you're cutee . goshh , you HAVE to be told that everydayy huhh ? hahaha ! i hopee we get a class together during schooll - we can talk about boys again :D or, maybe girls in your case . hahah ! i hope you know that ill always be here if you need someone to talk to or just want someone to listen . i hope you're always safe and make the right choicess , i believe in youu <3 ,

7. hiyaa ! i think you're soo funny and cutee ! hahaha and when we talk about boyss , it makes me soo happyy :D its so fun talking to you and telling you things cause you always understandd and have the funniest reactions . hahah ! we didnt hang outmuch , but let's play some more yeah ?


8. HAHAHAHA ! duddee , you're just, oh mann . Hilariouss , you cutiepiee . <3 our farting episodes and whenever we let out our feelings about something, we connect . we get each otherr , yah knoww ? :D you alwaays understand how i feel and i always understand how you feel. its like, brain/heart conenction hahah ! im soo glad i met youu bubb . i remember when i firstt met you , i thought that you were soo weird . ! LOLL . but thenn , i realized that you're not . . . NOT . heheh (= you're still weird , but in an uncontrollable-loving-you-because-i-just-do -and-you-make-me-love-you way . and you creeepyy , hehehe i lovee youuu <3 !

9. It all started 8th gradee i think huhh ? clase de sciencee . hahaha ! it was funn :D and as the year went by , i think we got closer and closerr . <3 ill alwayss be here for you, and i say this with a clear consciencee . i wouldnt do anythign deliberately to hurt youu , i promisee . i lovee playing with you and just being two stupid baffoons acting like kids with ballons and scooters . letss continuee to become better friendss , yess ?

10. i knew you since middle school , but I wasn’t that close to you. then in high school we started talking more and we got closerrr . ! i don’t know yet if I can still trust you with everything, but I know that I can trust you when it comes to certain things. at the least, I just hope we keep becoming better friends as time goes byy (:


11. hiii ! You know what i lovee ? when we see each other and meet eye contact and you smile and you go "elainee!" and then i go "___!" and we give each other a hug . hehehe <3 it makes me soo happyy and comfortablee :D we dont talk that much these dayss , but i hopee that we can start picking up from where we left off and continue becoming clsoer friendss ,



12. I've known you ever since i was in 1st gradee , and you lived in the apartment under mine . hahaha ! and i remember the first day you moved in , i brought out a Maple Hill ball and started playingg . IDK WHY . LOLL ! mann , i was soo gayy . hahahaha ! butt you live near me again :D so let's go swimming and talk and playy more now !


13. ive met you this year, but I think we became good friends . I helped you and you helped me in certain situations , hahah ! I feel like I can always trust with telling you things because even though you most of the time have your own opinions, your responds are interesting and funny. and also cause . LOL . let’s continue to be good friends , yeah ?

Dudee , omg okayy so todayy , i asked my mom to buy some bbq ribs while she was at costco but she didn't get any cause my mom said there wen't any left .
And it felt like my world was coming to an end.
I was so sadd ,

inventions

today was sarahpang's birthday :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH !
SWEETSIXTEEN. WOOHOOO .

so i made a cake for her and ic3 went by a little faster than normal. then in src we learned about AIDs and HIVs . scary stuff man D:
then while we were watching a movie I went to mr. A's room to meet my friends cause all they do is watch moviess !
luckybuttss .
i dont care how boring they say it is , i think itll still be fun if you're with your friends (=

thenn after school my mom took me and my sister to the mall to shop but then my mom was hungry and we needed her to be in a good mood so we were going to eat at souplantation but my sister was being a little brat so we just dropped her off at the mall irst herself and went to eat , mommy and i <3
and thenn we went to the mall and she bought me so many things . yayyy !
i was soo happy, cause im nearly broke these dayss . x_x

thenn , i came home and this is when boring stuff happens .
piano, and tutor .
and blahblahblah .
then i had to write my writing class essay about inventions .
FRIGGIN GAY .
UGHH ,
but then i was talking to all my wonderful friends so it was okayy .
kept me companyy (:

hmm , i havent written here in ONE WEEK . i realizedd .
soo RECAP .

last thursday, sarahpang, crystal, sarahkim, and karan came over .
nail polish, food, wii , and TALK <3

then friday-
pamela's partyy !
it was realllyy funn .
some of us watched confessions of a shopaholic and then sharon and karan and i played Horse fora while . then watched princess protection program with some of the other girls , and then wtached shopaholic again . and this time the guys watched it too and they were so into it . !
hahaha ,

then saturday-
karan's party !
it was superr fun too !
it was swimming but only crystal grace karan and me swam .
boooo .
hehehe , but it was still fun .
karan's soo funny in the pool . :D
then we watched a scary movie, a gay french dubbed one .
but the pictures were so scary o_o
and at the end, there was like this grand finale pop-up scenee and michael was sooo funnyy !
he screamedd and he went climbing on devin and everybody was screaming too and yelling and freaking out . hahaha !
and then josephchang did his dare and wore by swimming suit top and omg .. . . lakjghakhgf
hahaha , but it was FUNNY .
then we played these games outside and then i left .

and then i watched trasnformers with my parentss .
SO FUN .
thenn , everything else was same .

then yesterday i went to movies and watched public enemies but i regret it . it was so boring , shooting al lthe time and so we went out before it ended . it was still pretty funn though !

hehehe , i love my summer so far . <3

happy list

so many
misunderstandings
and confusion
and grudges
and uncertainties .

well anyways, on Sunday Pastor David told us that he keeps a "Happy" list. So whenever he realizes something makes him happy, he goes back to list and adds on, & especially when he's in a bad mood, he goes back to his "Happy" list and it lifts his mood up a bit.
SOO , I decided I'll make a happy list too !

Things that make me happy:
-family
-friends
-love
-dogs that don't lift their legs when they pee
-cats that purr alot
-three-colored cats
-dogs with soft ears
-soft skin
-lotion
-the sound of galloping horses
-delicious smelling perfume
-samples at see's candy
-when I get a text from someone
-when I get an IM from someone
-trash cans
-toilets
-well working erasers
-pencil cases with funny english because korean people are making it up
-hugs
-pretty pencils
-the feeling of your bed being extra comfortable and soft after a tiring day
-going bathroom after holding it in for a long time
-contact solutions
-Charmin toilet tissue
-comfort
-the smell of #2 pencils
-smiles
-laughter
-jumping in the pool with all your clothes on a hot day
-when you finally solved a math problem and got the answer right
-pouches for pads
-playing Gongi after lots of years
-good books
-long fluffy tails on dogs
-bathing a dog with long fur
-books that make you cry
-pictures of myself when I was younger
-pictures of other people when they were younger
-cute sappy love movies
-movies/books with an astonishing twist at the end
-fat hamsters
-birds
-the feeling of relief when I find someplace or someone I know after being lost at a new location
-random presents
-how all the popular holidays have a special theme color
-smooth keyboards
-talking on the phone
-hot baths
-warm summer nights
-cold winter saturday mornings when you get to sleep in late and your'e all wrapped up in your blanket and it's nice and cozy
-talking about your dream future
-electric pencil sharpeners
-funny teachers
-birthday cards that sing
-watching movies and eating ice cream on rainy days
-little kids under the age of 6
-eating avocado with a knife
-eating peanut butter without a knife
-kisses
-looking over to your friend who has the same expression as you do & you start laughing
-late night talks with my sister in bed
-banging on the piano
-pretty piano songs
-meeting someone you haven't seen for a while
-meeting a friend at the movies
-emotions
-car washes
-pretty ankles
-smell of Pinesol
-good songs that get stuck in your head
-when your nails look perfect
-days where you feel confident
-hyperactivism
-dimples
-black bear cubs
-pretty shoes
-sound of someone eating nachos
-the butterfly-rollercoaster feeling you get when you think of someone you like
-the feeling you get when you're finally all done with homework and you realize you get to sleep
-cute money pouches
-buying dresses
-when you don't have alot of sand in your swimming suit after a day at the beach even when you swam in the water alot
-ginormous calendars
-good food
-cute socks
-killing all the zombies from far away in House of Dead
-knowing that I slept earlier than usual
-playing with friends and knowing that at least for that moment, everything's perfect & nothing can go wrong
-getting the timing righton guitar-hero
-when my parents are talking about something and laughing about it together
-when my dogs actualyl stop barking after I tell them to stop
-when my sister attempts to make something to eat by herself

goodnight (:

sunshinee .

None at all today ):
it was friggin cold .
What the heckk ! Hope it get's sunnier as the days go by , tehehe .
today was so unproductive for me =o=
i didnt do anything at all. All I did was go to vet, tutor, then come home and stay on computer the WHOLE DAY and watch movie. The only thing I got done was ic3 homework and I'm not even completely done yet =__=
OH ! But i watched My Sassy Girl- in American version! hahah, it's ALMOST the same as Korean version but a little different.

I ate WAY too much than i planneedd .
I want to get a flat stomach at the veerryy LEAST so that i can wear a swimming suit and a shirt over at least so that when the water makes the shirt stick to me, my stomach's not bulging like I'm 6 months pregnant . T_T
hahahah !

hmmm , soo todaayy :

I read Julie's blog.
I cracked up, cause they're ALL TRUE . hahah, ohmygosh . I love you Juliee .

I also read MichelleP's blog.
You silly gooosee- ddon't worry. Bad things always happen to me too =_=

& MichelleK's blog, I wish i went campign too. I'm jealoussss .

& Philip's blog.- mann, you write alott ! LOL .

& also Joe's blog- Its interesting too . hahah

&Karan's un-updated blog. LOL , you failed not goign on computer, hahaha , thats all right . Happens to everyonee :D

peoplee , update yours as i do mine too ! teheh ,
I want to read all of yourss . And know every single detail of your lives .
>:) muehehe ,

SUNSHINE&SUMMERTIME
LISTEN. it's old song, but it's prettyy .



HAHAHA ! funnyy .
Credits to Devin.

summerr .

actually , i dont want to do any sad or pissed off blgos so im going to soudn optimistic :D

dangg , i didnt write here since may:O
oh myy !
but now since i have more time at home im going to try and write more .
soo im taking src/ic3 in the summer . anddd
ic3 made me realize what a horrible typer i am -__-
i do sooo bad o nthe practice keyboarding exercisees on the computers at school , omgg .
embarasssigng ><

and my class is so boringg , and quiet all the time . there's no one to talk to and socialize with except for sarahpang but she sits all the way in the back .
src's boring too , except the teacher is kinda crazyy so he makes it a bit interesting. (x

omgg , ive barely played at all this summer . only like, twice . -o-
soo call me upp and let's hang out people ! :D
playplayPLAYYY .
create ltos of memories and experience new thigns this summahh .

let's make this summer a summer to always remember ,
tehehehe <3

so far so gooood .

yeahh , everything's so far so good .
hahaha !
WEEELLLL ,
i saw michelle park's blog and seriously, she has one for like, everyday .
OMG O_O how do you do that michellee ?!?!
but , im going to try and do that too :D
so that when im like, 30 years old i can come back to this website and see what my high school life was about .
hahaha !

okayy , so today was a good day .
butt , it started off weird .
because in pe, we played basketball and i friggin embarassed myself =o=
likee , first i fell and im seirous, the falling part took so long for me to get to the ground o_o
and thenn , right after i got up and tried to laugh it off , i bounced the ball and it hit me right in the face -__-
eff my life . hahaha !
buutttt .
math test wasn't as hard as i expected .
i hope i do gooodd (:
hahaha ! and thenn , likee , yeahh .
actually , there's not that many good thigns baout it .
it was just not-bad .
yahh knoww ? hahah !
but it was funny at lunch because sarah and karan were trying to imitate their spanish teacher the way she explains DOLORES .
DOOOOOloress . DOOOOlores .
hahah ! you guys are funnaayy <3
ohhh , and in spanish , we learned a new songg .
this and these both have t's . that and those dont . hahah !
and then in bio , we learned so much about the veins and capillaries ! :D soo funn !
i think i likee bloood .
hahaha ! it's interesting .
and thenn , after school today , michelle kim was trying to pull pamela's sock so that it could snap like how people snap rubber bands but it didnt work and so she said she looked retarded .
and then she told me abot it in the bathroom and we cracked up like craazzyy . mann , SO FUNNY MICHELLE .

well , im goign to go noww ,
finals are just next week and math final the first part is this friday .
so gotta study . !
byebyee !

where is the love

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love
-"Where is the Love," Black Eyed peas

such an old song , but so truee .

OKAY . So , I dont want to make this a depressing blog , cause , thats not the intention I had when i first started writing .
the point IS .
thatt , im being a lazy bum right now . i have so much english homework and i still havent started .
friggin, powerpoint AND poetry analysis questions AND poetry analysis essay AND a poetry notebook ??
klinger is seriously nuts to the brain .
but , i sitll love her . i think she's such a good person , she's so patient . i always forget my notebook i nthe locker right after i had break and i never turn in AP book reports in time and turn it in after school and never bring vocabulary cards and always talk and laugh loudly with friends in class . BUT , she still keeps her lid on , and she's nice (:
and her lame jokes and old past stories are funnayy . ! hahaha ,

dudee ,im listening to my ipod on shuffle right now , and GUESS WHAT SONG just came on ?
Come my little friends
As we all sing a happy little working song
Merry little voices clear and strong
Come and roll your sleeves up
So that we can pitch in
Cleaning crud up in the kitchen
As we sing along

A HAPPY WORKING SOOONGG . (:
ehehe ,
mann , i feel so hyper and lame right now .
and NOW , im going to go mess with mitchelpeee .
(:
byebyeee ,


p.s. is it too late . ?

p.s.s. and homework too =_=

"a warm bath, a good laugh, an old song that you know by heart . "

THE MAN WHO CAN'T BE MOVED IS THE BEST SONG . seriouslyy , . im so addicted to it , i even memorized all the lyrics ! hahaha ! its pertyy .
welll , i havent written here in such a long time i think , right ?
but , nothing's really happened thats worthy to talk of , and im getting so lazy these days .
BUT , what i discovered , is that i think im a night person .
hahaha , cause during the day and school and like, in the mornings , i feel like everything's so useless and annoying and dumb . and everything gets on my nerves so fast and i jsut want to let out all my anger in whatever form , but , im trying to keep it in cause it wont do any good to glare at someone or ignore a person . cause i know I wouldn't like someone to do that to me jsut because they're not in a good mood .

BUH THENN . at night , i feel so happy . and all the good thoughs come into my head and i feel so energized and hyper and HAPPYY ! i think i already said that , but its EMPHASISM . ahahah !
soo , whenever you're bored , CALL MEE ! it doesnt matter what timee , just call me , please (:

i LOVE talking on the phone . it feels so special now cause nowadays , everybody just texts , and some people do it 24/7 and so the meanging of having a phone feels less special because i think phones were first invented so that people could communicate to each other by SPEAKIGN into holes and LISTENING to the other .

but , i think these days are getting better bit by bit , and im so thankful for thatt (=
there's a start for everythinggg !.
and im so glad that im still keeping in touch with people because i have a tendency to lose connection with people QUICK .
so this is a great deal to mee :D
and tomorahh is michellepeeee's house so im excited . yayy !
michelle , if you're reading this , don't worry .
IM COMINGG , MUAHAHA ! >:)
(; and sarahkim , if you're reading this right now , i cant wait for otmorrow night .
we'll have our "bedtime" , JUST LIKE last saturday the night before early morning sweep :D
hahahaha ! <33

mann , summer's coming up ! at first , it felt like summer was going to be no different from any other summers , and i wasnt excited for it .
but now , im starting to wish that lots will happen . i want to be able to do things ive never done before , and experience things ive never felt .
i hope itll be a summer to remmeberr ,
even WITH summer school . hahah ! can't wait for travelingg !

i remember i used to hate traveling when i was younger , but now i love it .

i love seeing new things and taking pictures and making memories and spending time with my familyy .

this summer , one thing i HAVE TO ABSOLUTELY DO is hang out with my sister . i need to share some sisterr bonding with her . ahahaha ! <3

and i HAVE to get tanner , its so depressing . i never get any darker . . =_= even if i swim alott . or wear tank tops , my skin refuses to get darker , ksljdghlksajghaskgh . only my facee . WHAT THEE HECK .
so ill be a tofu the whole summer .

i WONT let that happen >:(

& tonight , i will not miss 11:11 <3

):

i miss everything .
everything that was ,
that used to be .
everything comforting ,
and fun,
and happy .
i especially miss those memories .

and i think . . .
that school is pretty gay ,
church is getting distant ,
feelings are fading ,
feelings are getting stronger,
friendships are fading ,
new ones are forming ,
for the better ,
maybe for the . . bad ?

there's nothing to look forward to anymore ,
everything is one constant, dull , boring , continuous hum ,
that never changes , and only meets downhill slopes ,
never uphills .
or not ?
well , for me at least .

there's still summer to come ,
but somehow , it just doesn't seem any more special or exciting .

i dont know ,
i just miss it all .
&& at the same time ,
i dont reall know what i miss .
actually , i dont really know what i want anymore .

so many thoughts ;

ohkay well , i was hoping that the first day back to school from break would be great !
but it wasnt -_-
it was actually really boring for me and i was in a bad mood the whole day .

. . . and i dont know why . -o-
PMS ??
hope sooo .

ughhh ! so many little things seem so big to me now and the littlest things gets on my nerves . im serious , like the stupidest things, seriously .
for example , like , if someone talks a bit too much , i just want to get my shoe and shove it up their butt and tell them to shut up =o=

im so messed up . OMGOSH .
and im being more mean now , i can tell .
lajhasdfgd;

but i cant help myself . AAHH !
i need something happy to happen ! to get my mind off of it . to put me on the right track again !

plusss , im so mad at myself .
im getting so lazy these days ): i start my homework late , i get off the computer too late , i dont want to go downstairs to staple my math homework papers, i dont want to go down and eat, i dont want to reply to texts, i get up late , i dont even do homework on weekends until late on sunday night .
im soon going to be supahh fat from immobility .

and then next week is STAR testing .
but actually , star's not that bad .

not that greattt .

SPRING BREAK is not that greatt =_=
it started out supahhh fun . !
but then it got pretty boring .

cause on friday : went to downtown brea with sarahkim . ate flamebrioler , it was so yummyy . tried on clothes at friends . i think their clothes are pretty . then walked to ralph's in like, 2 minutes and bought snacks and then walked back to theater in like another 2 minutes and smuggle thed snacks in. then watched haunting in connecticut . omgashh ! best scary movie i ever watchedd. the only one that made me tear up cause it was pretty sad too ):
thenn , we went to brea mall cause sarah's padres took us there and we shopped . then they dropped me off at church .
church was okayy .

thennn saturdayy : animal hospitall . saw so many cute puppiess and kittens . ! i think i have cat fever now . im getting addicted to catss .
thenn , my daddy took my mom and sister and me shopping and bought us clothes and then i came home and thenn , i dont remember what else idid .

sundayy : katherine&sarah came ovahh and we swam and tried to swim laps but the water was soo cold . then we ate chicken nuggets and apples and bagel bites and instead of losing weight , GAINED . lksjadghklsahg . but it was good , but there were SO MANY BEES because of the frigging chickennuggets . i hate bees now , but i still think they're cute . hahah ! thenn we tried getting a tan and even laid in the sun for like, 20 minutes . but nothing even changed x_x all that got darker was my hands and face . WTH . but i think its better now (: the sun was warm though , i wish it was warm throughout the whole break . !

mondayy : the evening was pretty boring -_- thenn , in the afternoon . key club event was pretty fun , more fun than i expected . food there was delicious . except for the orange chicken . ewewewww . thenn the dance was pretty fun . LOL .

thenn on tuesday : it started to get really boring . did nothing all day . the only highlight of that day was going out with my cousins at night for some boba and talking .

hope today will be funn .
i want to play today !

my goals for spring breakk :
-watch at least 2 movies .
-shoppingg .
-CUE .
-swim some more !
-beachhhhh .

choonhee babeyy .

dudee , my eyeballs are drying up x_x
cause i just slept for like, 20 minutes with my contacts on and yeahh .
haha !

well anywaysss , today i went on bio field trip today .
i thought it would be really funn but , it didnt reach my expectations .
but it wasn't BORING either . it was in the middle .

but i hated how the bus was soo crowded and hot and humidity . bleghh .

but the botanical garden was really prettyy . and it smelled nice and it had a veryy pleasant air . pahahah ! :D

OHMYGOSHH . AND ALSOO .
like , the way that we went to the botanical garden was JUST LIKE THE WAY i used to go to for my flute lessons and it brought back soo many memories .

like, you know when you used to go somewhere like, very often but then you stopped going there and all of a sudden you go to that place and its like , ALL THE MEMORIES COME RUSHING BACK .
yahh knoww ?

i miss my old flute teacher Wendy): she was sooo nice . and like , she always comforted me when my mom and i had fights and she always gave me a cookie and her husband was so nice and he always made copies for us and he was always so jolly . and OMG her dog Ellie was the sweetest ever . seirouslyy ! .

sometimes , i wish that i hadnt quit flute . even though i didnt like it , i think everything else would be worth it for me to just suck it up and endure the torture of flute lessons .

i miss Wendy so muchh ): sometimes , i wish that i could just meet up with her one day or stop by her house to say hi or somethingg .
aaahhh !

there's soo many people that used to be in my life but now arebt .
i wonder what They're life's like so farr.

sighhh . well anywayss .

todayy , i was ALMOT ABOUT TO GET A CATT ! ):
butt then my mommy made me get rid of it OVER THE PHONE . UGHH ,
like , my parents arent home for the weekend so i decidied to ask julia for one of her cats and keep it until tomorrow nad surprise them with it later .
but then my mom guessed what the surprise was so i just said yes it was a cat .
and she was like "GET RID OF IT IMMEDIATELY ! IT BETTERN OT BE AT HOME BY TOMORROW ! BLAHBLAHBLAH ! "
=_=^
soo , no more kitty anymore .
and i even named it Choonhee and got attached to it and even my aunt was getting attached to it .
ughh , only if i had a cat my home life would be complete - with a few exceptions .
isldhglshgs .

and today , i realized my old feelings for certain things are coming back .
i thought they were gone .
i guess not T_T
what do i do now ?
get over it ?
yeahh , probablyyy .

OHMYGOSH .
i just had a conversation with myself .
how gayyyy

scooters&balloons <3

OKAYY SOO .
today was the BEST DAY of this week so farr .
:D !
causee , school today was okayy . it was so hot for me cause i wore a blouse that went up to my neck .
with ruffles on the front, which chris said looks like a vagina =o=
WHAT THE HAILLL ???
thenn , we finished Gatteca in bio and it was suchh a touching movie . it moved my heart . hahah !

and thenn , after school , all the fun stuff happened .
chodeTiffany&i went to penisheadJuliahoolia's houseee and saw all her cute furry kittens and her mommy cats . SOO PRETTY !
and the baby cats are the friggen CUTEST . im serious manggg . omgash !
im going to take one home . MUAHAH !
and nothing can stop mee >:)
and i already named mine . tehehe , its name is now officially KARONG CHAE .
PAHAHAH ! :D
and thennn , tiffany's madre and her brojo came and took two kittens home . and i witnessed the adoption . LOLLL . those luckybuttss .
thenn , tiffany left and then Julia came to mahhousee .
after she came to my house, we rode on scooters and went down to cherry on top and on our way down, we took two giant balloons from the emerald point sign .
then we got some el yogur and ate that and then we scootered around that big empty parking lot space in front of kfc looking like a bunch of childish 9thgraders on scooters with balloons tied on to them . but oh well, it was funn .
thenn we scootered around the whole plaza once and got hungry and we ate phoo .
VERMICELLI WAS SOO GOOD.
thankyouu julia for introducing that to mee <3
i owe you $5 , mang .
hahah !
thenn we went back up and we sat in our garage with the lights on and made jae come over but we only stayed outside and just talked randomly for like, 15 minutes because mah madre came .
and yeahh .
and all that time , it was superfunnn .
lets do that again juliababeyyy <33

but then , i just realized firday is bio test -_-
BUTT . i am NOT letting that fact ruin my good day and fantastic mood today so im going to forget about that for now .
hahahhaha !
all right , byebyee .

the saltwater room

such happy days this week has been(:
seriously, everyday , at least one thing had made my day .
and one of them was always the weather . omgashh . the weather was SO PRETTY so far this week :D yayy !

dudee, and theres this one song that my sister introduced to me and its called the saltwater room .
ohmyy, so cute and the lyrics are so sweet and the song is so pretty ,
well, in My opinion . haha , go listen to it !
i put it on mah myspace .
puahaha ,

andd, i just started reading this really bittersweet book called Dear John and its suchh a good book . its cute but sad at the same time , it made me cry a little . and the story is soo like, dreamy. haha , but its one of those bittersweet love stories an yehh . hahaha !

well , . . this is it for today .
im going to go read now , byebyee . <3

cheer up, please .

ohmygosh .
i think there's so much bad things going on these days ,
not necessarily to me,
but as i watch the world, i think i can see it happen among the people i know and love ):

so many people talk about how gossip's going around, or how things are just not working out the way they prefer, or of how these days they're so sad and life is so gay to them .
my life is gay too, but not that much . im still satisfied with it, and i wouldnt want any other different life ,

thats why when i hear of people having such hard difficulties, it breaks my heart .
especially for mahfriends ,
i wish i could help you guys , but i dont know how to .
but i promise to pray to God that everything works out for you guys <3>

Amy Chen: i love how you and i can just talk about our "what the freak" moments and complain together about "what the freak" stuffs
Amy Tan: i love how we meet up after fourth period and get lunch together and you're always so bubbly and happy and you cheer me up after i get a bad test grade
Christine Kim: i love how you're open to talk about boys cause then that reassures me that i can trust you too with some of My problems
Clara Kim: i love your spontaneousness and your kindness and how youre not scared of piercing other people's ears
CrystalLee: i love when you IM me out of the blue because you feel like you're getting distant because that lets me know that you're a real friend
Deborah Kim: i love how you're always happy and you're so fun to talk to when talking about the guys we like
Evelyn Na: i love how you know some people that i know too that are not in the group of friends we hang out with, cause then that gives us an extra topic to talk about in a conversation
Grace Cheng: i love how you want to get some fat on your bones cause you think you're too skinny and you actually admit it and that lets me know that you really know what a healthy weight is
HyeJin Park: i love how you're modest and that you're so nice and when i see you being super nice, it inspires me to be really nice too
Janelle Francisco: i love how your first impression was good when you were new to DBHS cause you were happy and nice and bubbly and you're so laid back, that it mkakes me feel relaxed
Jasmine Chae: i love how we still remember our Doctor and Mango memories from way back in 7th grade and we still call each other that without thinking its lame
Jessica Chiang: i love how when you laugh, you're not afraid to laugh out loud and you're always so easy to talk to, i dont know why, but i love it when i talk to you about certain things
Julia Park: i love how you love your kitties and when we do our MAKness and go crazy and the fact that youre so close with your sisters is just heartwarming
Julie Keong: i love the moments when you're hyper cause your laugh just cheers me up and it lets me know that even with sad things in the world, there's always happiness
Karan Kim: i love how you always understand the feelings that i have, whether its happy or angry or annoyed or just confused and how you know lots about animals cause it gives me someone to feel animal-smart with
Katherine Chung: i love when i talk to you about serious matters such as the people who's causing me sadness and heartbreak especially cause the people that you know knows the people that i know and they're all connected in some way and i can always go to you to vent
Kristin Yoon: i love the way you talk and your accent and how you alway say "hi guys" when you greet people cause then i think "oh! its kristin!" without having to lok at your face cause you have your own unique style of talking
Pamela Chen: i love how you're always so gentle and nice and how you love your mom and helped her in the kitchen that one time at your house and how you love your baby Garfield
Priscilla Lee: i love it when you ask cute questions and how you're willing to leave at 5 to go to church from a birthday party
Michelle Kim: i love talking to you about the gayness of life and certain issues about what bothers us and i love how you understand the way i feel about certain people
Michelle Park: i love it when you and i laugh about something that happened together without even having to mention it out loud , especially when you're all the way in the front and im in the back of bio
SarahKim: i love how you always know how to say how you feel about something, and it makes it so much easier for me to know what's going on inside your head .
Sarah Pang: i love it when you get ADD and get so distracted by other topics when we're talking about a serious issue cause it always happens to make me laugh and not be depressed anymore, like that time at sarahkim's house
Sarah Chang: i love how you're so cuddly and motherlike and gentle and funny and tough and not afraid to speak your mind
Sarah Choi: i love it when we go crazy together and laugh uncontrollably and talk about bio at church cause it makes me feel smart
Sharon Hong: i love how we always laugh and talk about guys and your innocentness and i love your laugh cause its not too loud and obnoxious, but its not too quiet for a laugh either

title .

today
was
SO GAYYY .
school was friggin gay but after that, it kind of got a tiny bit betteer .
cause schoo lwas super boring , im not even kidding .
school is just soo blahh these days and there's no excitement and i never have energy anymore and its just, idontknoww .
so many doubts go through my mind these days now .
its kind of hard to trust people with doubts , yahknow ?
so its only getting harder .

sidughliehafkjsbghkljsd ,
and it started raining again today -_- ughhh , i hate rain at school .
especially because then we have to eat lunch in the hot, nasty, smelly gross band room where everyone's squished like a can of sardines and it just makes me lose my apetite .
ewww .

but today after school at amy's house for english project was pretty okay . i loved how there was so much food :D
ahaha yummyy .
and im still soo full .
mann, and a certain someone never stopped fartingg .!
LOLL .

oh, and by the way ,
is there a specific GOOD exercise you can do to lose the fato n your stomach, and like, on your side ?
cause i seriously need to lose those -o-
ughh, they're just depressing . loll.

such a BORE .

omgahhh .
today was such a boring dayy -_-
except at the end of the day, cause it was kind of interesting .
but yeahh .
EHNEEWAAYSS .
omgosh, today we did BMI in p.e., and when i looked at my percentage fat whatever thingy, i just wanted to cryy .
now everytime i see that number, i just want to cry cause it reminds me of the percentage of body fat i have and its just depressingg .
i have to start gettingin shape , FAST .
just in time for swimsuit season :D
hahaha ! hope its possible ,
so i decided to run and swim LOTS .
and stretch plenty and eat healthyy .
(:
slajkghsiauhfsa . mannn, why is school so boring these days ?
there's absolutely nothign to look forward to anymore, and the classes are just getting gay and im really starting to get annoyed of my english teacher for giving out dumb useless piece of crap projects . seriouslyy -__-
and the grading doesnt even make sense .
UGHHH . dumb klingerr .


&& i hate being blind and not being able to wear my contacts .
eye allergies suckk .
dont ever get them -_-

yah know what i realyy lovee .?
those really really good days at school .
especially if i prayed to God for a good day , and that day actually turns out good .
i feel SUPER HAPPY on thosee days .
ive had such really good days for a long time ,
BUT these recent couple of days suck.
like, seriously, SUCK .
im procrastinating more and more these days and i cant get myself organized and i cant study in one spot for a long time anymore .
and everytime i tell myself that i need to study causei dont understand it, i never do and i always put it off .
and then i get like, anxiety attacks or something and its practically liek having the feeling of stagefright but not on a stage .

okayy, soo, today, i told lina and michelle and sharon that the ends of necklaces are called a boobie .
and they BOTH were like o__o huhh ?
and were shocked for liek, half a second .
and both of their expressions were so funny :D
so just so you know people, the end of a necklace is called a boobie, so dont be shocked if i tell you to turn your neckalce so the boobie doest show .
hahaha :D
mann, im gayy .
T_T
loll !

asgkihaslfkhasdf , dudeeee .
this week, i made sooo many mistakes -o-
i regret all of them .
now this whole week is going to be boring and gay for me with no fun whatsoever .
but i hope that its still fun, either way .
and that something surprising and shockign happens .
but a GOOD shocking surprise . (:
loll .